Tag: Mental Illness

From Personal Struggle to Accountability and Advocacy

The last few weeks have been the most devastating of my entire life. I’m holding on by a very thin thread, dangling over the edge, grasping on tighter, while praying for reprieve and respite. I’ve never felt more disillusioned and alone. They always say… Continue Reading “From Personal Struggle to Accountability and Advocacy”

The Airing of Dirty Laundry & Breaking the “Status Quo”

As I was sharing my recent heartache and experiences with my therapist the other day, he stopped me to explain his role as a mandatory reporter. Therapists, as well as other medical providers, teachers, etc. are trained to recognize the abuse and or neglect… Continue Reading “The Airing of Dirty Laundry & Breaking the “Status Quo””

On Borrowed Time: A Space to Become Softer and Soar

  I feel as if I am here on borrowed time, having slipped in to someone else’s skin, never quite feeling as if things are familiar. I have but one foot on the ground. I’m not sure if I have ever felt truly safe.… Continue Reading “On Borrowed Time: A Space to Become Softer and Soar”

Alone & Unable to Connect to Family in a Global Pandemic: We are Strong, Resilient, and Enough

I am in a lot of personal pain that is stemming from the dissolution of my family. I guess I thought, by some stretch of a fantastical imagination and misguided hope, that the threat of a deadly global pandemic might somehow bring my broken… Continue Reading “Alone & Unable to Connect to Family in a Global Pandemic: We are Strong, Resilient, and Enough”

As I am Leaving, I Want You to Know…

  This is written for anyone who has left someone they love out of self-preservation. It is a letter from my bleeding heart to those I have left, expressing the emotional turmoil and grief of “letting go”. I recognize everyone involved has their own… Continue Reading “As I am Leaving, I Want You to Know…”

Freedom From Trauma: Letting Go to Take Care of You!

  It is difficult, to sum up in words, what I have learned over the past few months. I feel these new discoveries have the potential to shape my healing process in dramatic and positive ways going forward. The last decade of my life… Continue Reading “Freedom From Trauma: Letting Go to Take Care of You!”

“My Desolate Sea” and The Gifts it Gave To Me

I am massaging the stillness that is ever present within my struggle. I am increasingly aware of its existence budding within me, no matter how much I distance myself from it when in pain or I dismiss its potential to heal me. The human… Continue Reading ““My Desolate Sea” and The Gifts it Gave To Me”

Seizing the Opportunity Through Struggle

I have more than enough reasons to give up and resign myself to a life bound by fear, disappointments, and regrets. And yet, in the struggle, I am learning resiliency. I’ve peeled off nearly every layer of “skin” and have been left exposed and… Continue Reading “Seizing the Opportunity Through Struggle”

Honoring 47 Years: The Struggle and the Strength

  It’s my birthday. I haven’t been writing a lot lately because I have been going through a difficult time. Soon after making the move to California, I developed an interesting phobia, phagophobia, which is the fear of swallowing. I am still in the… Continue Reading “Honoring 47 Years: The Struggle and the Strength”

Sculpting the Shame Away: When the Child Feels Like the Criminal

Some labels have such influence and power over us that they often dictate and predict our behavior from places deeply embedded within us. Labels that are donned upon us in our formative years are not easily shed. It takes not only a lot of… Continue Reading “Sculpting the Shame Away: When the Child Feels Like the Criminal”