Tag: Mental Illness

Swimming & Separateness

I remember long ago, when I was only a small girl, swimming effortlessly in my Grandma’s backyard pool. I don’t recall ever learning to swim as I’m fairly certain it followed closely after I learned to walk. I vividly recall gliding along the bottom…

Out of the Fog: Finding Yourself & Forgiveness

  I’m walking away. I’m learning to let go while opening my eyes wider, scanning the horizon for everything that has escaped me while I’ve been away. I’m learning. It’s been messy. I’m drawing the conclusion that some situations and scenarios are so convoluted…

Unraveled Yarn: The Mess That Has Made Me

I’m beginning to have glimpses of joy. There are times when I am able to relax, falling lightly, sinking into myself like butter melting on a hot Summer’s day. Even various memories are flooding back to me as I remember myself, and I smile….

Flying Solo with You: Collectivity Versus Competition

Could our way of competition and capitalism be leading us to isolation and depression? I search our city streets and I see a myriad of frenzied people often using tense and terse words, elbowing others for their tiny turf they’ve claimed. Horns are honking…

Let Me Be Light!: From Trauma to Snowflakes & Lighthouses

I’ve been stewing all day. Heck, actually, I’ve been stewing all week. It was at some point in the day when the snow outside began softly falling that I grinned, ear to ear, amused that I had been granted my little wish. Something as…

Waiting No More: It’s Time to Drive!

I’ve spent a lot of time waiting. I’ve been restless, at times, desperately desiring to be completely satiated, longing for validation and visibility. I waited a whole decade consumed by the desire to be passionately loved. I gave every ounce of my being to…

Fractured Family Tree: The Scapegoat Lets Go

I went down “that path” again. I knew in my gut what was waiting for me. Still, I went anyway, carrying that last bit of hope, protected deep inside me. I was still holding on to a lovely memory that has since become more…