Tag: Bipolar 1

Honoring 47 Years: The Struggle and the Strength

  It’s my birthday. I haven’t been writing a lot lately because I have been going through a difficult time. Soon after making the move to California, I developed an interesting phobia, phagophobia, which is the fear of swallowing. I am still in the… Continue Reading “Honoring 47 Years: The Struggle and the Strength”

A Slippery and Stigmatizing Slope: The Use of Recovery in Managing a Mental Illness

Can we please stop using the word, “Recovery” when talking about mental illness? The use of this word for those who struggle their entire life with a mental illness is damaging. This one small, seemingly insignificant word communicates to others that healing from a… Continue Reading “A Slippery and Stigmatizing Slope: The Use of Recovery in Managing a Mental Illness”

Waiting No More: It’s Time to Drive!

I’ve spent a lot of time waiting. I’ve been restless, at times, desperately desiring to be completely satiated, longing for validation and visibility. I waited a whole decade consumed by the desire to be passionately loved. I gave every ounce of my being to… Continue Reading “Waiting No More: It’s Time to Drive!”

Guns and the Mentally Ill: How Scapegoating is Increasing Stigma

  Dear American Public, As an individual who has suffered for over two decades with Bipolar 1, I share with you the same outrage and heartache you more than likely experience when learning about another incidence of gun violence in our country. I cannot… Continue Reading “Guns and the Mentally Ill: How Scapegoating is Increasing Stigma”

Silenced Stories of Our Struggle

  There is an unshared story that is told over and over to my tear-stained sheets on so many restless and sleepless nights. It’s a story that I feel others don’t want to hear. A story that is told in angry, broken phrases, and… Continue Reading “Silenced Stories of Our Struggle”

Crazy Making in America: A Desperate Cry to Change Our Broken System

It’s broken. It’s shattered. And, it’s literally killing people every single day. The system that is currently in place for serving individuals who are struggling with a mental illness is fragmented, fractured, and incompetent. I have been a recipient of mental health services for… Continue Reading “Crazy Making in America: A Desperate Cry to Change Our Broken System”

I Don’t Really Want to Die, But…

I don’t really want to die, But… I’ve been fighting a war with my family for too long now. A war to feel believed, seen, valued, and considered. A war to stop the enabling of addiction and dangerous behaviors that are harming the ones… Continue Reading “I Don’t Really Want to Die, But…”

I Will Rise, I Will Love

I am again in the midst of leaving and letting go. This act of self-love has left me captivated in thought.  Much of what I was clinging to throughout the years and wearing in heavy layers, is shedding, leaving me unraveled, naked, and new.… Continue Reading “I Will Rise, I Will Love”

Lighthouse List: My Guide Through Stormy Seas

I’ve been on an endless quest of forgiveness and self love. I keep getting tripped by various events that suck me into old habits and patterns. I reach clarity only to be pulled back into the fog where I am wounded, raging, and ruminating.… Continue Reading “Lighthouse List: My Guide Through Stormy Seas”

Healing is Hard Work: 6 Tips for Healing

Feeling at Home Alone in my sanctuary Of birds and trees I strip of earthly blanket Where no one can see It’s one of those days Of sun and of rain I rest on a rock My thoughts, unchained I feel beauty in all… Continue Reading “Healing is Hard Work: 6 Tips for Healing”