Tag: Addiction

From Personal Struggle to Accountability and Advocacy

The last few weeks have been the most devastating of my entire life. I’m holding on by a very thin thread, dangling over the edge, grasping on tighter, while praying for reprieve and respite. I’ve never felt more disillusioned and alone. They always say… Continue Reading “From Personal Struggle to Accountability and Advocacy”

The Airing of Dirty Laundry & Breaking the “Status Quo”

As I was sharing my recent heartache and experiences with my therapist the other day, he stopped me to explain his role as a mandatory reporter. Therapists, as well as other medical providers, teachers, etc. are trained to recognize the abuse and or neglect… Continue Reading “The Airing of Dirty Laundry & Breaking the “Status Quo””

On Borrowed Time: A Space to Become Softer and Soar

  I feel as if I am here on borrowed time, having slipped in to someone else’s skin, never quite feeling as if things are familiar. I have but one foot on the ground. I’m not sure if I have ever felt truly safe.… Continue Reading “On Borrowed Time: A Space to Become Softer and Soar”

Alone & Unable to Connect to Family in a Global Pandemic: We are Strong, Resilient, and Enough

I am in a lot of personal pain that is stemming from the dissolution of my family. I guess I thought, by some stretch of a fantastical imagination and misguided hope, that the threat of a deadly global pandemic might somehow bring my broken… Continue Reading “Alone & Unable to Connect to Family in a Global Pandemic: We are Strong, Resilient, and Enough”

As I am Leaving, I Want You to Know…

  This is written for anyone who has left someone they love out of self-preservation. It is a letter from my bleeding heart to those I have left, expressing the emotional turmoil and grief of “letting go”. I recognize everyone involved has their own… Continue Reading “As I am Leaving, I Want You to Know…”

Freedom From Trauma: Letting Go to Take Care of You!

  It is difficult, to sum up in words, what I have learned over the past few months. I feel these new discoveries have the potential to shape my healing process in dramatic and positive ways going forward. The last decade of my life… Continue Reading “Freedom From Trauma: Letting Go to Take Care of You!”

“My Desolate Sea” and The Gifts it Gave To Me

I am massaging the stillness that is ever present within my struggle. I am increasingly aware of its existence budding within me, no matter how much I distance myself from it when in pain or I dismiss its potential to heal me. The human… Continue Reading ““My Desolate Sea” and The Gifts it Gave To Me”

Swimming & Separateness

I remember long ago, when I was only a small girl, swimming effortlessly in my Grandma’s backyard pool. I don’t recall ever learning to swim as I’m fairly certain it followed closely after I learned to walk. I vividly recall gliding along the bottom… Continue Reading “Swimming & Separateness”

Out of the Fog: Finding Yourself & Forgiveness

  I’m walking away. I’m learning to let go while opening my eyes wider, scanning the horizon for everything that has escaped me while I’ve been away. I’m learning. It’s been messy. I’m drawing the conclusion that some situations and scenarios are so convoluted… Continue Reading “Out of the Fog: Finding Yourself & Forgiveness”

Flying Solo with You: Collectivity Versus Competition

Could our way of competition and capitalism be leading us to isolation and depression? I search our city streets and I see a myriad of frenzied people often using tense and terse words, elbowing others for their tiny turf they’ve claimed. Horns are honking… Continue Reading “Flying Solo with You: Collectivity Versus Competition”