Tag: PTSD

Burn Brightly: The Healing Fire Within You

I haven’t written for awhile. I’ve been walking among the shifting sands once again. As painful as it has become, I’ve learned so much on that dry, barren waste land that actually gives so little. Or does it? Over the years, I have continually…

Swimming & Separateness

I remember long ago, when I was only a small girl, swimming effortlessly in my Grandma’s backyard pool. I don’t recall ever learning to swim as I’m fairly certain it followed closely after I learned to walk. I vividly recall gliding along the bottom…

Out of the Fog: Finding Yourself & Forgiveness

  I’m walking away. I’m learning to let go while opening my eyes wider, scanning the horizon for everything that has escaped me while I’ve been away. I’m learning. It’s been messy. I’m drawing the conclusion that some situations and scenarios are so convoluted…

Unraveled Yarn: The Mess That Has Made Me

I’m beginning to have glimpses of joy. There are times when I am able to relax, falling lightly, sinking into myself like butter melting on a hot Summer’s day. Even various memories are flooding back to me as I remember myself, and I smile….

Let Me Be Light!: From Trauma to Snowflakes & Lighthouses

I’ve been stewing all day. Heck, actually, I’ve been stewing all week. It was at some point in the day when the snow outside began softly falling that I grinned, ear to ear, amused that I had been granted my little wish. Something as…

Waiting No More: It’s Time to Drive!

I’ve spent a lot of time waiting. I’ve been restless, at times, desperately desiring to be completely satiated, longing for validation and visibility. I waited a whole decade consumed by the desire to be passionately loved. I gave every ounce of my being to…

Fractured Family Tree: The Scapegoat Lets Go

I went down “that path” again. I knew in my gut what was waiting for me. Still, I went anyway, carrying that last bit of hope, protected deep inside me. I was still holding on to a lovely memory that has since become more…