Tag: Narcissistic Abuse

The Great Scapegoat’s Escape: When to Cut Ties

I’ve been wandering around, lost, in this desolate wasteland, devoid of growth, authenticity, and connection for years.  I’ve been using my voice, often much too loudly, shouting to be heard, only to sit with invalidating reverberations in solitude, suffocating, choking on the stagnant air….

Watching You Suffer

  I see you suffering and I acknowledge your struggle.  You’re dragging around this heavy wrecking ball, fearful of both hanging on and letting go.  There is a part of you that is becoming so exhausted, clinging to this shattered dream.  You spend each…

Reframing & Rebuilding: 5 Lessons Learned While Healing

  Healing from childhood trauma has been the most significant endeavor of my life.  The last two years I have been raw and rapid cycling, while dealing with a lot of anger and pain from the past and present.  Below, I share some of…

Strolling About the Port

  I am accepting the reality that my family bonds have forever been compromised by my sister’s addiction and the aftermath that followed it.  My mother’s enabling and the lack of remorse and accountability my sister expresses, has left me painfully aware of the…

The Story of Us

The Story of Us I feel you around me, Beside me, inside me. Your Breath, my lips, Your hands, my hips.   The fear dissipating, The storm, abating. The calm of the sea, An understood liberty.   Together, Apart, The Ending, the start. Your…

That Fear

That Fear It’s still there, That fear. It’s still there.   I can’t recall, A time when I was free. Please, Let me be. Don’t waste it on me. I’m not doing anything about it.   It’s still there, That fear. It’s still there….

Hello Grief.

Hello Grief. For so long I avoided you, gave you the silent treatment, ran the other way.  I wouldn’t let you stay. I thought the layers of pain caused by abandonment, betrayal, invalidation, and neglect would be intolerable to acknowledge. I sit with you…